Music Lyrics Because I am Apparently 12

Oh Jimmy Eat World, this song applies to every hard time I have ever had in my life, I do not even care if it is almost 10 years old by now. Here are the lyrics to The Middle:

Hey,
Don't write yourself off yet.
It's only in your head you feel left out,
Or looked down on.
Just try your best,
Try everything you can.
And don't you worry what they tell themselves
When you're away.

[Chorus]
It just takes some time,
little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine,
Everything, everything will be alright. (alright)

Hey,
You know they're all the same.
You know you're doing better on your own, (on your own)
So don't buy in.
Live right now.
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough (good enough)
For someone else.

I do not even need to write any more then that on the subject, because it just sums it up so perfectly. Friend dynamics are still a little crazy. I am not sure how to explain it, but it is totally different from normal college, probably because so many people live with host families quite far away. Travel plans are also causing me great woes. I do not know what to do, I keep trying to convince myself that I can change it to make it work, but it seems like if I want to go along with other people I either do not get to go where I want or it is a lot more expensive then how I wanted to do it, but I also want to travel with friends. I have almost convinced myself to do my extra 3 days in England alone, but I do not know if I would get lonely or scared traveling alone. However, Stonehenge I have wanted to visit all my life and I have been obsessed with making it to Windsor Castle since I saw Prince Edward talk about it. My school is paying for my flight to England and for 5 days in London, I am going to take the opportunity while it still exists.

Today Grace and I went on a Føtex adventure! Føtex is like a super amazing Target but with more groceries and worse clothing. It took us over an hour to find it though, with lunch included possibly 2 hours... but it was not raining yet and if I wasn't so tired from my field study this morning I would have loved the walk.


My field study today was with my Multicultural Context class (my core class) and we went to DIA school which is a private Muslim school in Nørrebro (which is just across the lakes from where I live). It was very interesting, and I just can't get over how different the school systems here are.

I got my grades back from the test and the paper that were stressing me out. I did not do as well as I wanted, but I should not be going back to Sonoma as a total failure.

As a side note, all my friends have joined sororities in the past year and a half. Like, ALL my friends. No one really joined fall semester as freshman, but I literally can name like 4 or 5 people from home and Sonoma who are not Greek. This weirds me out and makes me feel as if I am missing out. I am not so much a fan of sororities as a whole, although I still love the girls I know who are in them, but I feel like I may have to rush as a senior in able to know anyone at all when I get back. LOL that I was about to post this and just reread this blog, including the lyrics at the top. I am doing better on my own, Jimmy Eat World told me so. I think I can go a little longer without worrying about fitting in when I get back to California.

Practicum and Royal Danish Ballet tomorrow!